The Diary of a Blogger

"Tell meeee what’s really going on
Tammy’s back up in this thing I’m ready, what’s happening
Gon for surgery but now I’m back again
I’m bout my bloggin’ like a m*thf*cking scratch and win”
Hey everyone.. I know, I know I have been gone for a while but I am back (well just for today).  I have been in the hospital since Thursday for something that I thought was just a tooth ache, which ended up becoming something even worse... serious that has changed my life… forever
I don’t even know how to start this because this is a sensitive subject for me but since being in the hospital I have been diagnosed with like 256478 things from a stroke, heart attack, (TIA)-Transient ischemic attack to finally being diagnosed with Bell’s Palsy. 
Bell’s palsy is a paralysis or weakness of the muscles on one side of your face. Damage to the facial nerve that controls muscles on one side of the face causes that side of your face to droop”.   
With this disorder (that came out of nowhere)the left side of my face feels numb, my eye twitches alot (I have to wear an eye patch at night because I cannot close my left eye. Have a heart monitor on me 24/7, take a lot of meds, My speech is slurred, my ear (well left side) is very sensitive to noise and of course my face is distorted (see some pictures below).
One thing about me is that I am I like to keep things to myself so me being sick was something that I wasn’t going to share with the world because I didn’t want to scare anyone as well as admit that I was actually sick. I sometimes tend to joke about things just not to think about them/think positive instead of negative.  The very first night I checked into the hospital, of course I was scared but I was asking the nurses to take a picture of me so that I can blog about, typical Tammy.
It was just a regular day for me at work.. no problems, still blogging, tweeting & then 2pm hit and I felt something was wrong, my face started changing and I couldn't see as well, This is what Bell's Palsy does.. It can attack at anytime and no one knows why.
A lot of people have never heard of this condition and I feel today that I want to share this with everyone/educate to let them know that it is NOT life threatening but do understand that IT WILL COME BACK AGAIN.  For now I have to continue to take my meds as well as do therapy to get my face back together.  This process can take anywhere from 2 weeks to 2 months but I am a fighter and I will be back in no time but for now I NEED TO CALM DOWN, rest, relax so that I can hurry and make a speedy recovery for Fashion Week J
I just want to THANK everyone that has called me, sent me bbm’s, facebook messages, emails asking “where are my post?” and tweets.  I also cannot forget my FAMILY who was there with me the whole time, my best friend, friends, co-workers and more friends who came to visited and who made me feel better.
Before I go… take a look at some of the things that got me through this while I was in the hospital...
From some of the best ever... Thank you!
Wendy’s frosty:
This was the only thing I could taste, which made my day.
I listened to the “Floetry” station on Pandora and I was jamming. All day... all night while on my blackberry that I snuck in
Nurse Pam:
The best nurse ever... I wish I took a picture of her but I forgot. Nurse Pam was able to calm me down and be there for me even when I tried to escape... lol, yes I left my room & needed to walk around. Who knew that I wasn’t able to do that? To make a long story short Nurse Pam had her body guards look for me (while I was in the waiting room all the time trying to sneak some snacks).. *Shout-out to my roommate who didn’t snitch on me though... she had my back while I was walking around... J

“Ima be a pain in you’re a** until you’re back walking the mean streets of NY with your 6-inch heels” ~Cray

The End



Re'Anna M. said...

Hello Tammy, you are truly a trooper. My older brother was also recently diagnosed with Bell's Palsy, so I can some what understand what you are going through. I will keep you in my prayers and may god continue to bless you because he bought you through all those ailments and still made it possible for you to continue to live and do something you're great at...blogging.


SocialiteReview said...

Tammy !!! oh wow no wonder I have not seen nothing from you lately ! well I know you are strong and will pull through i will keep you in my prayers ! Oh by the way i will try color blocking again lol i got a new idea in mind :-) i pray i can pull it off lol ...but on another note stay strong and get well. i wish you all the best.

Fashion Maids said...

Oh my! So sorry to hear about this Tammy. I noticed that you haven't been on for a while and decided to check on you and now to hear this, not good!But more importantly happy to hear that you are maintaining and of course blogging.Keep up the great work:-)


Fashion Maids said...

Oh Tammy, I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. I haven't heard from you in a while and decided to check up on you and this is the news I get, Not good! But more important- you are maintaining and blogging.Good for you,stay positive :-) Get well soon.


LA Lynn's said...

Ohhhh noooo… NOT my girl TAM!!!!! DAMN, DAMN, DAMN!!!!! (In my Flora Evans voice)… that’s right girlie EDUCATE US!!!!! We need to know… I’m so glad to hear that you are in good spirits. I’m sending you a long distance hug and get well wishes as you are in my thoughts and orayers for a speedy recovery!!!! You will be back on your feet in HEELS in no time and blogging away. ~They can’t hold a good girl down!!!!! We will be “ret chere” when you return!!!! U FULLY inspire meeeee…

~Peace & Hair Grease!!!!

Xoxo, SMOOCHIES, Muah & all that!!!! TTYS

LA Lynn's said...

*PRAYERS* oops... slip of the fingers!!!! These danggone nails. lol

Theory Republic said...

I've already shared my words of care and advice for relaxation. I wasn't expecting the shout out, but thanks. Normally I would say hurry ya ass up and get better, BUT, you need to take a year and a day. Great post, get well soon, and I'll be in touch.

Ashleigh Duncan said...

Get well soon babe! I noticed you hadn't blogged as much as usual and thought something was up.

That is beautiful that you have so much support from your friends.


Dre said...

I'm sorry to hear about all that you have been going through. It's great to see that you are still standing strong though and in great spirits--characteristics of a woman warrior. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you get well soon!


High Heels & Good Meals! said...

Why didn't nobody telll meeee!!!! (In my Ricky Smiley voice) Girl, I din't know you were under the weather (Hence, I haven't really been on Twitter much). I hope you feel better soon. I had a student who was diagnosed with Bells Palsy in December and was back to normal not even a month later. You are definitely a trooper and your willingness to stay positive is to be admired! You'll definitely be in my prayers! Stay strong!


Looms, Lids, and Layers said...

Tammy! I am so sorry that you have experience this life changing event! I was thinking something must be wrong.... I know all about it only through being a pharmacist but I know you will get through. Contact me if there is anything you need even if its just to vent!

you hang in there and stay strong. I am sending prayers up for strength and motivation. You will be up and at em sooner than later!

Carmen Vogue said...

I am happy to hear you are recovering well. I am sure if you keep up that positive attitude you will recover in no time. In the mean time I will keep you in my prayers. P.S. I just added the Floetry station to my Pandora ;), I love it! Get Well Soon.



Unknown said...

I am so glad that you're doing better. I will definitely keep you in my prayers. It's good to know that this disorder is not life threatening. I wish you well. That's crazy how one day you're cool and the next day you end up in somebodies hospital bed with tubes & needles going in & out of your body. I hate hearing stuff like that. It freaks me out. But once again I am glad that you're doing ok. Stay beautiful & positive! Take care of yourself girly. And keep us posted on what's going on with you. Love ya'!


Anonymous said...

*Once again my sisters computer won't "LET ME BE GREAT" & log-on to my own damn site under my name to send this message BUT.......

Thank yoooou everyone for all of your well wishes. I am doing fine & EVEN better right now reading everyone's comments... I LOVE my "blogger" Fam!


Ebony Styles said...

"I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!"~ Dr. Seuss

I hope that this makes you smile. So sorry to hear that you had fallen ill. You are defiantly in my prayers. Stay strong sweetie. I hope that you will have a speedy recovery so that you will be feeling great for Fashion Week.


SOJO said...

Hey babe!

I already sent my love, but just sending it again. Your strength is so REAL. Your good spirit is official tissue, ain't nothing bootleg about your strength. You will prevail, T.

Mad love, always.


Sojo, FWB

Anonymous said...

Hi Tammy,
my prayers are with you , get well soon.